Pain

Song: Pain
Artist: Grammatrain
Album: Flying
Year: 1997
Label: Forefront Records
Genre: Hard Rock

i wish that i could say i am a perfect man
i wish sometimes that i would not be who i am
one day i decided i would think on this,
not knowing if faith and pain could co-exist:

how could i ever on my own conceive
of someone i did not know, but i need?
i must be made to be at peace and communion
'cause there must be some place somehow from where I have fallen

Chorus
i find through every ounce of pain i feel
that my mind cannot deny that God is real

the inconsistency of what i say i should be
compared to what i am in actuallity
leaves me in conclusion that i know the way
though i am unable to always obey

nothing in this world has satisfied
my soul's hunger for a deeper life
the weight of my misdeeds were crushing, blinding me
i still live with pain inside but now i see

- Chorus -

- Solo -

the pieces of my life are scattered on the floor
i stared at them till i could take no more

i do not deserve to be set free
forgiveness is what i despereately need
if it wasn't for the perfect blood was shed
would i not be dead inside but i live now instead

- Chorus (2x) -

i know my faith's still here
believe through all my tears

This has really great philosophical lyrics. My favorite line is "how could i ever on my own conceive of someone i did not know, but i need?" It makes you think that God is not someone that could be designed by humans. Christianity is not a religion that humans accept. We want a religion that we are in control of. We want a list of dos and don'ts. We want a formula we can follow to get to God. Christianity does not offer that. God reached down to us telling us that we need Him.

This song portrays a growing disatisfication with self. This disatisfaction gives us evidence that there must be something more. There must be something outside of us. The song shows us that pain should lead us to God and not away.